I refused to end this year

I woke up on 30th of december morning, from a very bad dream
a dream I refused to end. this year,2009, was a year.a year where it all ends and where it all begins. call me a coward but,for just this time and only for this moment, I'm afraid of what future bring..
I wont seek for another happiness
I need to stay still, a hole in a heart was enough
I wont ask for a perfect life
and just for this time, I ask you to be close, to open that door again..

if you're not..I wont be there next year..

me, my thought, and my prayer