.....

..sumtimes its good having a hurt feeling..
..shows that u still have it..:P



















..7-2/4-2/4-3/8-1/8-1/9-3 . . 4-3/8-1 . . . 4-2/8-2/7-3/8-1/7-4 . . 7-4/6-3/6-3/6-3 . . 6-1/8-2/2-3/4-2 . .

..4,744.01miles away..and yet you blown your own cupcake..

...a candle, a cupcake and internet..

from 763,474,402.944 cm to 15 cm..
from fire to hope..
from heartbeat to blood in a vein..
from joy to tears..
from 20 to 21..
from Auckland to Jakarta..

from me to you..
*hepi bday my cupcake..


..I'm crazy,I know..

I won't open my eyes and leave the dream
cause when it shut, there you are..
you don't have to go anywhere..
just closed it, here I am..
you hold my hand when I blink..
I sniff your hair when you sleep..

I know I'm crazy

but I can't just open my eyes and leave the dream..
cause when it shut,there you are..:)

my head was just gona pop out!

.........arrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........



"..every time I'm about to sleep,I fears my eyes won't open again..."

things are bigger than they appear

SWEEK
band post rock asal belgia..
aduh ga ngerti lg deh,msti ngomong apa..
gw krajingan parah..
yang pling sadis ada lagu di album pertama (shooting star high) yang judulnya
..things are bigger than they appear..
16mnit..
3mnit ptma monolog tentang poet...
gila inspiring abis!!!
silakan di donlod...
http://d.turboupload.com/d/2161880/05_Things_are_bigger_than_they_appea.mp3.html

buka archive2..xP

..and the wind goes..


..in a tree we believe..


..magical hapiness..



..shin rue..

it really grinds my gear!

langsng saja..
percakapan di sbuah tmpat dmna bsa ngorder kopi sma pepper twist yang gw paporitkan..

terdapat 3 org..
1.si-bodoh-yang-mngaku-bodoh
2.si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid
3.tmn-org-bodoh..

si-bodoh-yang-mngaku-bodoh : (minum kopi sore sambil nikmatin asinnya pepper twist)
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : (sambil ngobrol ma tmn-org-bodoh)

tmn-org-bodoh : jdi uda brapa lama lo dsini?

si-bodoh-yang-mngaku-bodoh : trus menyeruput kopinya yg di beri 1shot espresso bwat caffeinated otaknya..

si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : weits..born dsini gwa..
tmn-org-bodoh : hoooo...okay..
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : oia,kok profile lo di private sih??knpe emg?
tmn-org-bodoh : lah?private apaan?profile yg mna nih?
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : itu tuh..profile lo!
tmn-org-bodoh : iya,mksd gwa dimna?ef es(fs)?fesbuk(facebook)?ato em es(ms)?
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : iyah..yg di FE ES(fs)
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh: what?(sambil ninggalin kopi dan pepper twist yg bru stgh dimakan..)
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : iyah..FE ES(fs)
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : EF ES (fs)kali?
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : lah?apa bedanya si?
si-bodoh-yang-mngaku-bodoh : (dalam hati)*lah?ktnya lo lahir dsini dodol?
(keuucap) lah?beda egoooo..
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : ah sama aja juga..EF ES ato FE ES..sama2 ditulis 2huruf yg sama..
si-bodoh-yang-mngaku-bodoh : (diem)..bapakmu sama!!!
si-bodoh-yang-mengaku-bodoh-tapi-ga-maw-diblg-stupid : iyah2..EF ES..

but since then he alweys saying FE ES..
and thats iritatin!you prick!

terharu ato terhina?

wakakaka..
gw ga taw dah ini suatu penghormatan ato penghinaan..
tpi 22 october kmaren gw *dgn ajaibnya* menang "overall prize winner for the most convincing zombie"wakakaka
parah dah..

pdhal jam stgh 6 kurang gw baru nympe rmh..akhirnya cma pake shyrup, saos tomat sma mandi tanah..*I did!*..
tpi ternyta pegel jg jlan dri aotea cnter ke britomart act as a zombie..pegel pala..
untung hari itu pikiran lg ga karuan jdi gampang ngluarin aura2 depresi..wakakaka..

ini foto d dpan apartmnt..baru kluar apartmnt uda lngsung ada org panik nawarin help*lo kira gw abis tawuran hah?wakaka*...




pas ampe britomart..well..actually i didnt expect anything..
tpi klo bsa dpet best acting lah..eh tawnya ga dapet..ya sudah,alamat home wif empty handed..
tpi pas annauncernya blg.."this time the winner by anonymous..come from nowhere,we didnt see him last year either..without any theme,,zombie who just..zombie?was the guy with white shirt!"
wakaka..xP..
maklum yang laennya kan pake theme..ada yg wedding bis tu mati,jdi masi lengkap pake gawn and blazer,ada yg edward scissorhand-type..
tpi..well..i won..*entah msti terharu ato terhina"





*foto2 yang laen and footage2 menyusul..
oia,heres some link..
- gambar2 dri flickr
- gambar2 di wordpress
- official myspace of the second auckland annual zombie walk

addictive

well,I cant stop listenin to it..
really...

RADIOHEAD lyrics

jawa..

wekeke..
uda lebaran..
mangap2 ya klo saia ada salah..
yang ga sengaja..palagi yg sengaja!T.T..


well,kburu inget..
ni foto2 napak tilas di jawa..
wekeke...



ini ada keoong emasss..>.<(wekekeke..maklum bru liat..xP)


bayangn mesjid..*intinya neduhh..wekekeke..xP*


3tiang mnjulang d langit..*msi mikir filosofinya..errr..ga ngerti ah..*

dea apa gwa yak??weks..lupa ndiri..xP


kikiki..k sawah dgn pralatan perang..wekekeke..


a flower has bloom..*caelah..bunga mekar doank jg ki..



ngemper d jawa,nunggu kereta..uda siap2 tiker bwat ngemper d kreta..x3


becak keren abis..all white,,xP


ni org niat bgt,ampe motor pun dibungkus bwat mudik..x3

what the deuce???

"whats wrong with u people??"
itu mungkin bner2 apa yg ada di benak gw wktu di soekarno-hatta waktu tgl12 kmrn..
(caelaaahh,benaakk??apa pula ituu???)

jdi kejadiannya begini sodara2..
pada tgl12 gw pulang k oklen(lebi tepatnya pergi "lagi" ke oklen)..
jadwal di itinary si psawat take off jam12.20..
tpiiiii..bonyok heboh berat..jadi gw ampe soekarno jam 12.10!(what a smaaart move!)..
pas check-in..
"waduh mas,psawat sq-285 uda closed gatenya"
wakwaawww..di satu sisi gw bingung!bgimana ini??gw musti transit jam10 di spore tpi gak dpet pswat??!??tpi di sisi laen seneng!>.< !
yes..makin lama gw d jkrta!brrti si goldfish bsa dtg..*ihiy*
naaaahh,wong lg panik2 gtu..tiba2 si mbak2 check-in nya bilang..

"mas........ringgo yah?"

what the deuce???yaelaaah mbaaaakkk,gw lg mikir iniiiiii...mikir gmna peswat gwa nnti yg transit,mikir bonyok uda cabut apa blom,ank2 uda cabut pa blom,si goldfish bsa dtg pa gak..
buanyaak daaahh..
trus gw reply..

"aduuh,si mbak!bukan atuh!saya lg bingung digituin!tega bgt si..T_T..jd gmna ni mbak?"
"maap mas,abisnya mirip!*sambil cengar-cengir*ya udah ke customer service di pojok kanan aja mas..nnti blg aja ktinggalan pswat.."
"oohhh gtuuu...ya udah saya ksana dulu ya mbak..."

tiba2 pas maw narik koper berat itu si mbak2nya ngmng lagi..

"tpi mas bkan adiknya ringgo kan yah?"

aanjriiiiiitttttt!!!kyk kata john mclane di filem2nya..its like cool when ended climatic event with word..like"yi-piy-kay-yeay..motha******"..tpi klo..ini.."tpi mas bkan adiknya ringgo kan yah?"damn!it really grinds my gear!*klo kata peter nya family guy!wakakaka...
sumpah itu siaul abissss...T_T
untung skg uda di oklen,gak ad lg yg teriak "woooooooyyyyy ringgggooooo"*believe me it happens waktu gw k pesantren adek gw di jawa..-_-"*..

*I miss my goldfish...T_T

its copyrighted!

~ME~ & ~HER~

>.<

nationalism?yea rite..

aduh!17agustus lg!..
eventhough i kept telling to myself that im a nationalist,tpi gw pliiiing malay klo dsuru dtg acara2 17an!!!(kcuali bkal ada pembagian makan gratis tentunya,oiaa..and band)

bingung euy!ni badann kyk uda di chain down ke sliipingbag merah yang nyeelimutin badan kyk kepompong krna udara diluar lagi 13 celci!uda gtu angiiinnyaaa..brr..ini wellington ato oklen si??T_T
taw d gw dtg ato gak..klo ada yg ngajak trus gw mu dibayarin si gak nolak..
wekekeke..

eniwei,just to show tat im a nationalist as well...
bwat 17an!MERDEKA!
sebenernya si males jg..tpi well..


*i miss my goldfiiishT_T

alexisnite!!!

huhuhu..yeay!
akhirnya kesampean jg nnton alexis!!!(dengan harga yg okay skaliii)
tgl 29 kmrn ada solidsonic!acara festival ptama yg featuringnya ALEXISONFIRE!


ptama liat ni poster di northshore cma ada1!mngkin krena ada
tulisan "$ 35"!!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
bsok sorenya lngsung beliiiiiii..kgak pake mikirrrrr...wekekeke...
smnjak tu tiket ada ditangan,bdan uda gak sbar dpet bruises...
tangan uda gatel gampar org!wakakaka..
smua unek2 pgn dtumpahkan di moshpit!!!palagi pake alexisonfire!aaaaaaaa....

eniwei
here's my checklist:

1.bilang ma boss,tgl 29 gak kerja gara2 ada acara pnting?[check!]
2.balsem dan paremkocok disiapkan dlm tas kantong kanan? [check!]
3.kamera tahan banting di cek lg ada eror pa ga?[check!]
4.mkan dan minum yg cukup??[check!]
5.angkat barbel pling gak shari 5kali(soalnya klo gak bru 5mnit lngsung tepar!gyahaha)[check!]
6.dompet isinya cma kartu2 aja(soalnya kn st,james pake eftpos,jdi g perlu cash)?[check!]

*ps.gak smua yg diatas bner!sperti anda lihat dalam point 5,gw ngisi [chechk!]for the sake of consistency doank..wekeke...sbnrnya kgak gitu2 amad..ahaha...

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D-day!(290507)

1.tu acara mulay jam6,krna satu hal dan lainnya gw brngkat jam stgh7(soalnya gw yakin bgt bkal ngaret!:P)
2.pas uda dket2 st.james(nama venuenya) gw uda agak2 kawatir..byasanya acara gni didepan2 st.james ada emo-er2(gyahaha,not even a word)yg nongkrong diluar..tpi kok g ada ya?

bnerlah apa yg saya takutkan!!
venuenya ganti!huanjrit!uda telat,msti jalan jauh lg bwat nympe k tempat brnama the studio!!!
akhirnya saya putuskan naek bus..
sumpah kurang asyem abis!!klo taw di the studio mnding gw bawa camera yg ada telelensnya!!!soalnya seinget gw di the stdio g ada razia tas..aaaa,,,trus g ada eftpos lg!mna bsa beli2????aaaaaa
im my thought...

"anjrit,di the studio lagi...waktu motocade manggung bawnya gak karu2an dsitu..waahh..bkal liar ni..ihiy!"

pas nympe the studio gw uda taw ni sapa duluan yg lagi maen..
the rabble!
band punk dgan cathcy2 anthem dan performance yg motivated its crowd..
dan gw coba moto ternyataaa..ya namanya pake digicam byasa,jdi gambarnya g bsa di maksimalkan!sial!



sperti byasa band2 ini mmbuat anda menyanyikan lagu yg liriknya2 dalem tpi dgan ekspressi kyk anak tk abis dibeliin eskrim!(its pure cause music..ckckck..bsa ampe bgitu)
gw ada videonya si..tpi nnti aja gw upload k utube..
wekekeke...

stlah mreka selse abis itu byasa..persiapan band yg brkutnya...nyetem2-ganti2 simbal,de el el..pnnton si pda ngobrol..tpi deritanya g ada tmn jdi pas jeda yaa..cenga2cengo..
smpet si gw liat ada yg muka2 indonesian gtuu(cwe),eh pas gw samperin ternyata org laos..sial!(g sial2 jg siii..atleast mulut gw ngomong slama bbrpa mnit!gyahaha)



band yg k2 yaitu..
city newton bomber
band rock!ahaha..walo kurang mnarik perhatian crowd..mngkin gara2 2mnit ptama suara bassnya ilang..wekeke...
nih potonya..



yg kurang ajar,pas lg trakhir vokalisnya nyiram bir..ah monciaw!!!knpa msti dsiram si??klo kasi masi pnuh si g papa(bsa dijual lg)..wekeke...


============jeda==================

nah band yg k3,,gw lagu ptama gak ngenalin dah..,ini sapa lagiiii..tpi kok gitarisnya kyk familiar gtu y?(wakakak..sok knal abisss)
..ternyta eh ternyata di lagu ke 2 mreka bwain nitemare!g salah lagi! ini mah!
BLEEDERS
wakakaka..pntesan aja fansnya bejibun!maklum band oklen yg uda ckup terkenal..pnah tour brg carpathian jg klo g salah..tapi keren euy vokalisnya!!beda abis dri yg gw trakir taw!!seinget gw potongannya klimis a'la rancid skg lebi serem!gyahaha..lebi k arah brewokannya cast away!gyahaha(ya alooh...kpan bsa bgitu!ni tampang muda terus kyknya?gyahaha)
oia,gw ada vidnya klo g salah..insy@ nyusul deh..
(foto vokalisnya)



ni utubenya..mreka ngebawain nitemares..




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nahhh,akhirnya alexis!!!
mantapnya gw bru nyadar klo im standing di spot yg "spesial"!
knapa spesial?soalnya mayoritas yg di spot gw cwe smuaaaaaa...wakaka(ya alloh ampuni hambamu!)
pdhal gw uda perkirakan byasanya cwe mayoritas di kiri..(soalnya si dallas kan maen di kri)eh malah kbalik!uda gtu pas si dallas ma wade nyiap2in alat di stage,front row jdi smakin padet g bsa kmna2..wekeke(astapirloh alhamdulilah..xP)
nih hasil jepret...


*nah,sblm berlanjut prtama2 saya haturkan rasa maaf saya yg sangat dalam!soalnya slain gmbar 2 ini kyknya g ada foto lg!susah boo...pdhal mu poto..tpi g taw knapa pala jdi gila sndiri..ahahaha..

trus...
akhirnya alexis mulay ngebawain lagu pmbuka..which i dunno the titlegyahaha..(maklum,bkan pnggemar holic si:P)yg k2 gw taw!!rough hands!!!ahahaha...pas rough hands stgh itu bdan uda mulay aneh2..wakaka..kbyasaan sii..akhirnya demi org disekitar, saya paksakan move out dri spot itu(sial,pdhal uda perfect bgt tu..wakaka)
nah,mreka ngebawain skitar 12-15lagu..skitar sejaman..

uda gtu si dallas ma george ngelawak...
jdi abis lagu k4 si dallas(kita sebut D) blg gni..
"eh,wait..im just telling u to becareful man(ngomong ma george;kita sebut G)
G:why?
D:i dunno,but i think sumone grep my balls when we playing back then
G:what?
D:i know its creepy!when ur up here, it was just weird..its usual when it happen down there(sambil isyarat k arah pnonton)but when ur up here...well..creepy..
G:i know man...
G:i think sumone grep mine too
D:eh?(smbil ngarah k pnonton)guys,im just telling u..hu did it?
i dunt want to blame u,but i think u shoud check ur hands?r they infected now?
G:shit
smua org:ketawaaaaaa...waakakak...

yg bisa gw spot lagunya ada bbrpa..kyk bangsa2nya control(lagu wajib),hey,its your funeral mama(another lagu wajib),no transitory,crisis,tpi yg pling excited salah satu lagu paporit gw dibwain!44caliber love letter!!!!anjrit tu lagu..sedaaaappp...

nah pas di lagu k7 ato 6 gtu si george uda mulay buka baju..gila!!alexis pol2an maennya..bassisnya(sapa yak?bntar google dulu..wekeke)chris!gila tu orang!performance actnya lebi serem dri yg ada di moshpit!uda gtu si george ngebolehin crowd bwat naek panggung trus crowdsurf!!anjrit!!!bahkan ada org yg salto k blkg gtu..trus si georgenya geleng2 sambil snyum2 dan garuk2 pala!aaaaa...puas dah!

uda gtu moshpitnya yoha bet lg..
walo ternyata ada si laos-yg-muka-minta-digampar!!!(anak ini lebi pendek dri saya..tmpang..hmm,dbndingin suroso juga gntengn suroso dikid!tpi gyanya ituuu..aduh biyung!!minta digaplak!)sialnya dya cma liat2 doank kgak ikut dlm moshpit..klo ikut gw sikut!grrrrrrr...(loh?kok jdi ambisi pribadi gni yah?wakaka)


*ps.yg pake nofx itu cwe!!!


nahh..
skg gw critain my moment!!!...pas si george ngomong "this is our last song"gw uda siap2 mncurahkan smua tnaga di medan tempur(baca:moshpit)..mreka ngebawaaaaainn hapiness by the kilowatts!!!aaaa...cocok!!!!paraaaahhh...
nahh..ada tuh bgian dmna si dallas maenin nada tinggi trus dya teriak2 khas falsettonya..nahh tiba2,,,dya lngung triak..."YOU ABANDON MEEEE...LOVE DONT LIVE HEREE ANYYMOREEE"..sketika gw lngsung ikutan triak jga..aaaaaa...mrinding lansung dnger falsetto nya dallas uda gtu bwain love dont live here enimore lagiiii!!anjrit!!!!gak bkal dsangka2 ituuuwww..(bgi yg gak taw,tpi gw ykin uda pda taw..lgu love dont live here anymore tu lagu cover-an duetnya dallas..yg gw liat si ma cwe gtu,tpi ktnya ga cma ma cwe ituu..dan byangkan!!ini konsernya alexis!!analoginya gni..thom yorke tba2 bawain I've seen it all pas di konsernya radiohead???gilaaaaaa)..

nah,krna mrka blg itu lgu trakir,,,jdi saya putuskan untuk buru2 blik(krna hiper-super-mega-duper-ultra-dehidrasi!)eh,pnontonnya malah "we want more2!!"trus akhirnya gw smpet2in k kmar mandi dulu(sbnrnya si..errr..sapa taw tap water wcnya bsa dminum!wekeke..tpi trnyata g bsa!aer panas!siaul!),,,eh pas di wc tiba2 gw dnger ketukan drum yg sangaaaat familiaaarrr..aaaaa...get fighteeeeedddddd!anjrit,gw lg d WC lgi..akhirnya gw buru2 kluar bwat nnton lgii..nahh krna gw tlalu jauh dri stage jd gw pidioin dah..
jdi sbagian get fighted ma ACCIDENTS berhasil gw pidioin(walo jelek abisss..well..drpda kgak?)
yg kocak pas 2 lagu tmbahan itu crowdnya jdi mkin byk yg naek k stage bwat loncat..dan pas bodygardnya pgn turun tgn,,si george malah ngelarang(intinya ngebolehin crowdsurf)..
trus ada cwe yg naek trus joget2 gak jlas gtu,,,eh,tanpa malu tba2 nyipok si dallas pas lg maen!WAKAKAKA...kocak parah!!!wakakaka...
ni utubenya..


trus plg lah gw(sndiri)nahh..dodolnya..trnyata baju gw basah(ya iyalah!)nah jaket gw basah ktumpahan minum!!(hiks pdhal bru beli..)plglh gw dgn bsah2an..uda gtu tumben2an lagi oklen turun kabut..T_T..uda pala tengleng pulaaa...wakakaka,,,
tpi puasss...:P


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crita tambahan..
blik dri gig gw msti ngerjain kerjaan stgh jam!!tpi krna pala susah ngangkat jdi dikerjain sejam,,,T_T...
nih poto bonus...
(leher gw bneran nunduk!!!gara2 susah diangkat!kgak direkayasa!!!)

wakaka..promosi2...

The Plastic Constellation

wew,ni band berhasil captivated me in this 2weeks!!!
gw prtma ngeliat cd nya yg menggiurkan(tag harganya 4 dolar euy!)
lalu dipandangi cover albumnya..hmmm..cukup galaw..:P
trus gw liat list lagunya..

belly of the beast
quixote
phoenix and the faultline
...

wew..cukup galaw jg nih tmpaknya...
ya gw beli deh...

ternyataaaaaa.....
gak ada galaw2nya..untuk stgh mnit pertama gw ngerasa tertipu..
tpi untuk gw 33,6 mnit kdpan I admit tat I'm a faaaaaaaaaaaaansss..
pas 10mnit pertma gw bner2 captivated,,"ini genre apaaa lgiii???"
but whatever it is...it feels soooooo goooooooooodd...
well..I'll try to put it in a sentnce..

a band that just shout,talk,and catchy indeed.remind me of mike skinner,wif mars volta,and a bit hmmm..silly-drunk-saturday-nite-ish-lads...we areee wiiiiiiiilllllllldddddd...gyahaha..

yg yoi nya lg pas gw baca bionya!!!TPC(the plastic constellation) formed in 95 and release they're album in 2006!anjrit!gak kbyang matengnya materi songs mereka dan how close they are!!!11 years maan(eh,bner gak sih?)
imagine..slama 11 taon they gig-ing around states tnpa pnya album!!!!byangin klo Morning bell serius bkin album!arrrrrrgggghhh..un-imagenable paraaahhh!!!!

ni bgi yg maw dngerin..ato donlod..:D

semifinalists

ini band ptama kali gw baca di nme 8 april2006(kbtulan gmbar dpannya thom yorke jd lngsung gw beli deh!:P) ,I thought it will be the another hipiy-yipiy-pop uk band
huehehe..tpi what interesting adalah..there's an INDONESIAN in there!wekeke(cinta bangsa..)
and they're not hipiy-yipiy-pop uk band!..hmm..
pop mngkin bner tpi agak lebih sophisticated dikit(wakaka..falsafah sotoy)

ini review dri nme..

sublime,enticingly strange songs with more twist and turns than spritual grandaddy Wayne Coyne's intestine

wakakaka..
kocak abiss..
abis dnger tu review akhirnya gw putusin hunting cdnya dsini..(which I know gona be soooo hard..).dan akhirnya pas blan apa tu yah(klo gak september ato agustus gtu?).gw dapet!tpi tntu saja dgn bntuan knlan yg bkerja di cd store(sbnrnya si gw nya aja yg maksa dya knalan..wakaka)

gw jd lebi smngat pas trnyta bru ngeh klo andriana alba(vokals/keys..dan satu2nya cwe!) itu cantiiik paraaaahhh...

dri kiri>ferry gouw(vocals/guitar)>adriana alba(vocals/keys)>chris stelee nicholson(vocals/drums)

wakaka..trus gw liat foto2 performance mreka..gokiiiilllll...si ferry uda kyk jhonny greenwood(rmbut nutupin muka:P)..dan adriana cantik!(tetep"-_-)
pokoknya ni band yoha bet dah!!!
saya jd fans mu adrianaaaaa!!!...
ahaha..
oia,ini linknya..

myspace
site nya semifinalists

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ps.
akhirnya ada waktu jg ngisi ni blog..
wekekeke...

argument?

I've just across sumtin..and its really straight forward, clear, and what I had in mind..

I'm OK with expressing what you saw, but not with analyzing art. When people debate the "true" meaning, the art loses all mystery and becomes a tool for an argument. That's what bugs me.

anjrit!bner bgt ni!
sumpah bner!
so if you hear a crap song(to you) and ur friend says

"oh,this is good"
just answer "yeah,kinda..",
dont even think answering like these..

"oh,its crap man!...blablabla is better"
well,just prepare for something "un-descent"happen to you,,
cause it sucks!it really do!
...
..

pnurunan harkat dan martabat

you do it to yourself

ENVY

Envy is an that "occurs when a person lacks another’s superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it
'. At the core of envy seems to be an upward social comparison, that threatens a person's self-esteem: another person has something that the envier considers to be important to have. However, what is envied could also be something that is only of personal importance to the envier, even if what the other person has is of little significance in his or her society, or even seen as a sign of inferior status. If the other person is perceived to be similar to the envier, the aroused envy will be particularly intense, because it signals to the envier that it just as well could have been him or her who had the desired object.
(wikipedia)

"I'm a green-eyed monster"

mission accomplish!

ahahaha...
"i told you...one day I'll do that thing!!!"

akhirnya maen aer jg gw di aer mancurnya misbay!!!ahahaha..
dodol!!
untung wktu itu lg sepi...
cma ada 4org lg piknik...
(gobloknya gw bru nyadar tu aer mancur ada disamping jalan raya...arggghhhhh..bodo ah..yg pnting cita2 saya kesampaian!!!)

hihihi...
yg ini berjudul...


"..im not trying to kiss that thing..no i'm not!..i said i'm not!..oh,well..maybe a little.."



wakakaka...
ada lg yg laen...

berjudul...

"oh,for god sake that isn't a horse joni!!"


ahaha...
taken with my friend cam...


ahahaha...

wew..she's gone

tersebutlah joni lahir taon 1988,ank muda luntang lantung..
sudah 2 taon kuliah di negeri antah berantah.
tentu saja joni kangen akan keluarganya.
kakek-nenek dari bokapnya,kakek-nenek dari nyokapnya,bonyok dan keluarga.
mungkin yg termasuk paling berkesan bagi joni adalah nenek dari ibunya.

smasa smu, joni mempunyai pnyakit kantong-kering jd sbisa mungkin mengurangi mkn di luar(jajan). Dan kebetulan smu joni sangat dekat dgn rumah kakak ibunya(joni byasa manggil "bude").di rmah bude joni, terdapat bbrpa org..sperti neneknya joni, pakdenya joni,dan bbrpa suster(bude berprofesi mmbuka bidan clinic).
sehari2, setiap joni bersilaturahmi ke rmh budenya(ato bsa dibilng "lunch")yg ditemui pertama kali pasti neneknya!(krena pda waktu2 rush our yg dirmh hnya neneknya dan suster)
nenek joni(joni byasa panggil "mbah") putih,sekitar umur80an , memakai kebaya,tasbih di tgn kanan,gelas berisi air putih di tngn kiri(untuk memperlancar minum obat).
joni jarang skali ngobrol lama2 dgn beliau dkrnakn keterbatasan bahasa joni.
beliau memakai tegal tulen!joni hnya bsa berpura2 mngerti(skill yg akhirnya joni sering pakai).
slama 1 taon joni rajin menyambangi neneknya dri beliin bubur ayam sukabumi untk beliau sampe minjem duit nambel ban.

2hari sblm kebrangkatan joni, joni mngunjungi beliau untuk last visit.
btpa kagetnya joni saat neneknya mngeluarkn uang 350 rbu!
dalam hati joni ia mikir.."waduh,mbah teh dpt duit drmna??"
krena joni taw neneknya itu gak kerja,klo minta apa2 tinggal blg ma bude!
lalu joni pun basa2si.."duh,mbah..gak usah..joni uda dkasi kok.."
trus neneknya bilang dgn suara yg hampir hampa tpi sangat jlas di kuping joni..

"ini bwat joni jajan..wes!ambil!"

itu moment pling haru di minggu itu..bahkan saat bonyok nya joni mengntar k bandara pada tanggal 28 september 2005, joni tdak seharu itu..

2tahun sudah joni tdak betemu sanak saudara.cma bsa berhubungn dgn telpon dan dunia maya(internet).
dlm pikirannya joni dan kluarganya termasuk erat tak ada gap!
sampe pada tnggal 24 maret 2007 pukul 03.19 wib joni mendapat sms dari ibunya..

inna lilah wa ina i r.
mbah meninggal jam 2.30sabtu
kbumikn di tnah kusir jam1siang.
tolong joni solat goib.
wass.

pada saat itu joni lngsung solat gaib!lalu krena hari saptu ia lngsung maen bola sorenya.
saat di lapangn ada tmn joni yg kebetulan kluarganya sangat dekat dgn joni.
ia bilang.."lah jon?kok lo gak kliatan sedih si?lo uda dpt kabar kn ttg nenek lo"
mendadak otak joni dipaksa berputar( kalo cd room byasanya bunyi..cengcet2)
tiba2 bulu kuduk nya merinding..
joni pun lngsung pamit ma tmn2nya..padahal cma maen 30mnit..


joni pun mulay pening kpalanya..
berbagai pertanyaan tiba2 mulay menghujani otaknya..

oia?mbah mninggal!

klo g salah gw pnah nlpon deh..
kapan yah?oia!setaon yg lalu..
30mnit apa klo g salah...

ANJRIT!

2taon dan gw cma nlpon 30 mnit!!

dya pnah ngasi gw 350 rb deh!
itu dapet drmna yah?

mbah terkhir ngomong apa yah?

gw terkhr blang apa yah??

dammit!kok gw goblok si!

sambil dngerin mono yang moonlight joni ber-flashback di kursi bus paling blkg..
suddenly he realized how big the mistakes he made...
di malam pngajian joni dtg dgn mata bengkak...
lalu joni pun bingung..
how can he show affection to his grandma???dya spent the whole night for praying..
ym,msn,skype dya pasang status"wew..she's gone"
joni jga mnulis blog untuk neneknya
bahkan joni berusaha mmbuat lagu for her,sayang ktrbtasan joni dlm memainkan alat musik(to nothing)menghmbat nya..

but is it a little bit too late?




dedicated to joni's grandma..
kata joni..
"...i love you mbah,i really do.."

uneasy anxiety

pertama kali liat spotnya malem2 lngsung inget silent hill!!!
ahaha...


on the other side...


and if you stand close enough..
then u'll get this..

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one question no exact answer..
"knpa saya g bisa nyetir??"

option 1.gak bakat(sperti gw ma gitar)
option 2.gak maw bljr(sperti saya dgn math)
option 3.gak maw taw(sbnernya sama ama option2 cma kdngerannya lebi keren)
option 4.gak ada waktu?mndingn nyari mkan,ngerjain paper2,dan mlakukan berbagai hal2 yg aneh...

ahaha..
but believe me..
one day..
one day..
...

*one day dit!

from city to harbour..

wew..
gw lupa euy klo kmrn abis hunting foto!
gilaaa..mulay jam 10malem..selse jam2!!
wakaka..gmna gak lama...
city dipenuhi manusia2 liar yg sudah kehilangn moral!!
striptease di bus pole stop?(gak gw poto!!klupaan!), minta tanda tgn di..(uhuk2)..t**et?...
uda gtu hunting ma si bocah-mata-elang pula!!
bntar2.."eh,ki perasaan td gw liat ada cwe yg 'itu' dah!liat bntr dulu yuk!"
wakaka...
dasar2..

akhirnya poto2 di daerah harbour!!rata2 narcist gilaaa...
sangat bukan saya!!!paling yg g jlas ini..



wakaka..
taw dah gw mikir apa pas ngambil..
ahaha..
yg laennya?
duh..
jangan deh..
wekeke...


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*bwat bu ditaaaaaaa......
kapan bu lesnyaa??
wakaka

oia,gambar yg di page title atas jg punyanya bu dita..
ksini..

sangat-super-subjektip!

aaaarrrrrrrrghhh..
gak pnting nih!!tapi bkin gw geregetan seharian!!!...

jdi bgini...
sminggu ini kan gw dngerin the cure yg letter to elise mulu yakk..
(wekeke..gilaaa..saya kmbali k 90's!!)
nah..gw cari tuh vidnya..


duh,seakan gw masih pake clana biruuu..
jaman2nya gak brani pulang klo g ada temen..
takut diculik ma organisasi smp bernama "YPUI"
wakaka...

nah,gw jg inget tu ada tribute to the cure dulu...
yg letter to elise dibawain ma blink 182!wew!gw suka!(walo gw lebi prefer yg versi the cure)..


nahh..
yg bkin gw gregetan tu ada comment di vidnya the cure..
yg bilang gni..

"wow,is it the cure covering blink 182 letter to elise?cool"

langsung gw teriak saat itu juga!!!
WTF@!@@!@!^$&@$#^!!!
duh,gw sangat subjektif skali di post yg ini..
tapi mu gmna lgiii??
i'm just a human?

sidewalks on a cold shore...

yeay!akhirnya bsa jg catch sunset di mission bay..
gak sia2 kerja cepet!!wakaka..
(padahal byk yg gw gak kerjaaainn...ampuuuuun bosss...)

tapi ampe sana..saya agak sdikit kecewa...
ternyataaa....sunsetnya arah 90derajat dri pantaaaaayy..
huaaaa.....
akhirnya kita hunting foto deh..
(nah,ini jg bagian yg nyesek ni,,,pas nyampe sana,ternyata xd cardnya ketinggaalaaannn..
arggggghh..jdi cma ada memory internal yg bsa cma 9foto!!!grrrrrrr....)

klo misalnya turun dri bus di mission bay..
pasti pertama2 yg eye catching adalah aer mancurnya!!..
itu aer mancur tapi berfungsi jg sbagay kolam renaanng...



huh!one day gw bkal berenang dsituu..gak pduli se-memalukan apa!!pokoknya..
it loooooksss fuuuuuuuuuuuunnnnn...
ahaha..(tpi ngeri jg..takut dsangka fedofil lg!ahaha)

trus kami jalan2..sambil foto2 gak jlas..setiap foto tentunya diiringi dgn imajenasi saya yg agak2..
seperti ini..
1.lagu pyramyd song bersenandung...udara breezy,aer laut mulay naek..lansung ada suara thom yorke dikuping.."..jumped to the river and what did i see.."!(kyk yg di blog fs gw..yg gak taw..klik sini)




"black-eyed angels swimming with me.."
...
"there's nothing to fear..nothing to doubt"


huhu..imajenasi yg aneh..wakaka..

2.lagu envy yang night in winter..njing!dingin abiss.
.sambil mandangin scenery kyk gni...


akhirnya nikmatin sunset sambil jalan2 di shore..
dan satu lagiii..saya mkan eskriiiiiiimmmm...yipiiiieyyyyy
wekeke
oia..
ini foto sunset yg bsa gw ambil..hiks..



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bis tu balik dah..
habis hari saya...
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*dedicated for my identical twin..
wakakaka..